Saturday, January 24, 2009
Saturday Catch-Up and Pouring Out of My Soul
Nobody said the age I am approaching would be one filled with such mental deficiency. I've always had a fairly spotless house and have had all of my tasks organized so as to be accomplished in an orderly fashion. Dinners for the week were fairly well-planned out a few days ahead, I took my time looking over the grocery store ads, and I just felt like my home ran like a well-oiled machine.
That has all gone out the window in recent months. I cannot stay on task. If I start cleaning one area up, I jump to another area before completing the first. My fuse can be short some days, and I just generally feel.....weird. Can't explain it, I just feel so unfocused. I didn't realize that being premenopause meant I'd feel like I was losing cranial function and capacity.
Laundry, dust bunnies, and various items strewn about the house have been issues that can go unaddressed for days. The daily question of "what are you cooking us for dinner tonight" can some days be "Are you cooking dinner for us tonight".
I pray daily for this to pass quickly. Can a 49-year-old develop ADD????